Interestingly, can see my own reflection here.
“if you remain quiet, the rocks and stones will cry out…”
Being mindful of how I speak on an interpretation of this for myself today, lest I offend many, I was thinking about these words. Their context is with the Christ entering Jerusalem, but there are many words written that can convey more meaning and today I want to observe those words in light of my qi.
I have been taking qi gong with Lee Holden and it has opened up doorways that I didn’t know were there, they have just appeared in the woods, the fields, out my back door (and I might add, has taken a pound and a half off my body per week with the breathing exercises). The inward journey, while breathing has been exciting, discovering who I am and realizing that my person isn’t one to ignore, admonish when I think I’m wrong, or put down. Mine is a soul worth exploring, and who better qualified than me? After all, no one will be able to explore that cavern and take advantage of it’s resources like me.
And, in this journey, we take in the air that we breathe, we feel the trunks of the trees, their roughness, observe their mosses, feel growth.
Awhile back someone wrote regarding stepping out barefoot and feeling the earth, getting her energy. I’m not that person, can’t step in cold snow or damp cold ground, but as soon as I can, I’m going to step on pavement warmed by the sun. Whether it’s the pavement or the sun’s energy, it doesn’t matter, the thing that matters is that it is available to me. And I can feel my inner self expand because of it, because I have opened myself to recognizing it and knowing that it exists, and that by my actions, I am expanding my universe.
Let the rocks speak. They have a story. Listen and you will hear it.
It seems as if March is heading out like the lion. I was trying to remember if it was a lamb or lion at the beginning. Lion, I’m thinking? (correct me if I’m wrong, it will add to my activity on this site here!) I drove home from babysitting my sweet little granddaughter last night and the conditions were less than desirable. I don’t like to drive after dark anyway (restrictions apply!), and now the squalls of snow were swirling all the way home on those country roads. I found myself with the 4 wheel drive on and going about 20 mph. I only ever drive as fast as I feel comfortable in the evening or rain or bad conditions, so I thought that was interesting enough to mention. I probably would have yielded to a faster driver, so don’t worry if you get behind me. I’ll just have to watch out for you later, hoping you having hit something, my faith in your abilities is just as strong as in my own.
In review of the month:
I think my bottom line in this blog today is: grab hold of your life. Take ownership. This is your life, this is my life. No one can take it unless I give it up. And you won’t get my soul. I get to keep that! Note to Walt: Your lessons continue. (thumbs up)
I am a thinker. I am a methodical plotter (or plodder!). I need to think things through first before just jumping into them. As I see my life making some changes this winter and spring, I feel dragged along and it’s tiring me out! I watch those around me that involve me and how they struggle, my role in their life and it’s striving to be a caregiver of emotional support, My role at my “day job.” The stress of the loss (and recovery) of my iphone (and let me add here, the stress of finding out all the thief had done to it to make it their own in the course of a few short days and the nightmare–and the generosity, of Apple and Verizon as they worked with me to try to get it back up and running for me again. This event has taken the life right out of me and my iphone is no longer the joy it was. The thief not only robbed me of my phone, they robbed me of joy, thank you very much, little thief.)
Anyway, as I see myself starting to stress and trying to think it all through, it feels like walking into a cobweb you didn’t see in the garden. You feel the wisp and try to brush aside the annoying little web, but you can’t see it, you’re not sure if it’s there, but you can feel it. You can feel that it’s there. Brush it off, brush it away! Quick!
Maybe not so quick. Sit down and pick it off, sort it out. My friend texted me this morning when I mentioned it: “Relax, till you can change something.” So. Relax. Sit down. Pick it off, look at it, then let it go. One at a time. And stop worrying.